The Day From Hell ,Can Turn Into Knowing Just How Lucky You Really Are

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My day from hell began last friday and until now I havent been able to really talk about it much less write about it . So get comfy, grab your favorite beverage, I'll take a water, hold the ice, and join me on an epic journey of the day from hell and learning from it , just how lucky you really are.

 I worked for my very first time at the vets office last Friday morning. I showed up wearing my favorite pair of jeans, serviceable shoes, a tricked out little scrub shirt and a huge smile on my face.  I heard, good morning, welcome to the team , and there are lots of kennels to be washed out, the operating room needs to be cleaned from top to bottom, and your a very happy person arent you? Yes I am, I replied, and I was, that is until black Friday dared enter our happy establishment.  My smile turned to tears, my heart broke into a million pieces, but I held it all together. 

 You see when you work at a vets office, you go from playing with 6 month old furbabies who have come in to have surgery, they lick your hands, look into your eyes , and in my case melt your heart. And in an instant you are holding beloved pets as they leave this world for a better life, filled with no pain, no suffering and never ending love in milkbone heaven.  I told myself when faced with that, I would be fine, Im strong, I can keep my emotions in check. And I did, that is until I got home.  


 I all but crawled in the door, collapsed to my knees, wrapped my arms around Mavericks neck and sobbed into his huge fur covered chest. Begging , pleading and willing him to live forever and never leave me.  He licked away my tears, let me hold him until I was all cried out and followed me everywhere as I was trying to keep it all together to go to class.  It isnt an easy thing to  hold a beloved pet as they slip away.  My heart aches for the owners, I have been in their shoes before and its never an easy choice, but sometimes its the kindest thing they could ever do .


 I went to class, felt tears well up a time or two and plodded on through the rest of the day.  I came back home to an empty house, as the boys had already left, and Trevor wasnt home yet, had yet again another good cry, and said well that was a trip, one I hope I dont have to go on again for quite sometime.  Quite the introduction on your first day on the job. 


 Trevor came home, he hugged me, didnt say a word, just hugged. His hug said more then words ever could. His hug told me, his heart was breaking to see me in pain, his hug told me he was proud of me, his hug told me no matter how bad a day I will have, he will always be there for me, and his hug told me Im loved, 100%
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His hug got my through the day from hell. He brought supper home, I guess he was thinking even on a good day my cooking skills are far from great, let alone a bad day.  I made it through the rest of the evening, had a few drinks, refered to myself as dr kavorkian, the angel of death and god only knows what else, for me humour gets me through hard times.  I held it together until it was time to go to bed.

There is something to be said about strong arms holding you, the sound of a beating heart in your ear as you lay your head on his chest,  and the gentle kisses and soft murmers of, you had a hard day , you make me proud, and I love you ! I wept for a few minutes, but this time not for the animals whos journey ended, but for our never ending journey of true love, sharing your life with your best friend, and every kiss giving you goosebumps just like they did the first time he kissed you.

I fell asleep with a smile on my face, dry eyes, and my heart filled with love.  Will all my days be as sad as last Friday ? Probably not, hopefully not. But at least I know , that on those hard days, I will never have to go through them alone, and tomorrow is a new day, filled with slobbery kisses, soulful looking eyes, and my heart falling in love with animals Ive never seen before, but will also hold a special place in my heart. That hard day made me understand alot about myself, I know understand that I really am strong, I am caring, I am human, and most of all I am loved.

  May you all be blessed with that special someone in your life, who no matter how bad your day is, will be there with hugs that say more then words ever could, strong arms to hold you close, and gentle kisses that erase the memories of a really sad day. And after you wipe away your tears, may you all be able to once again say "I'm So happy I could shit rainbows, and fart fairy dust."